The Provigo is decorated for Christmas. I keep meaning to take my camera with me to document this truth, alas, I forgot once again.

It has been a quiet weekend. I’ve been funky all week since Vaughn’s death and it is taking a toll on my emotionally. I am feeling very sad for Johnny and so I’ve not been much use to myself as of late. Yesterday I took the day off to sleep which was nice. I don’t usually get a whole day to sleep – when my body needs it.

So this afternoon I went on a supermarket safari and did my grocery shopping for the next few days. Little bits and pieces here and there and some fresh fruit because I have been craving them and a loaf of Belgian Bread because I have also been craving white bread once again. The pork chops looked good so I got some of those for dinner.

At least they haven’t begun to play Christmas music in the store just yet.

We have been seeing a bevy of Christmas commercials on tv and soon the tree will go up, we usually wait until the first snow to do that but it doesn’t look like snow is going to happen for the next two weeks according to the long range forecasts.

Our 6 year old tube TV is on the fritz and we have been looking online for sales, it seems we will be upgrading to an HD tv in the next couple of months. Hopefully the tv will hang on until we can afford a $500.00 drop. Hubby got a fellowship and will be getting paid boo-coo bucks for his R.A. efforts, so that will more than cover the cost of a new set.

So I’ve also been contemplating my navel in a bad way. I am all caught up in what if’s and dying. I am concerned with growing older and loosing things it is all so irrational I know, but it is all hitting me all at once and I can’t seem to get out of this funk. have I done everything I wanted or want to do – NO. Are there still things I want to do – YES.

It is just very weird. Last night I listened to a show with Ian Punnett about “The Fourth Turning.” And I wonder about my generation and my contribution to the world. I am not worried about dying, yet I am pondering the thought. I am not sure why – since I am healthy and doing exceptionally well, numbers wise. I haven’t felt this kind of funk in a long time.

So that’s the story until now.

More to come, stay tuned…